The path to the next chapter in our lives is nearing a major fork in the road. The past couple of years have been 'quiet' times for me in terms of measuring accomplishments. My family had grown. My business closed, leadership responsibilities quietly closed and how I measured who I am seemed to be shelved.
As 'retirement' age raced upon us, this term and cultural chapter caught me off guard. Now what? "What next?", is how I am wired. There should always be a 'next'. Another day and another adventure, another reason for getting up each day and doing life. Life is meant to have meaning and purpose. I wanted 'life' to be on my terms. Being still before the Lord has been very hard.
As the calendar pages turn quickly, the known is slipping away and the unknown approaches! In less than 3 months we change hats. For the past year I have been, moping and worried. I have been scared and uncertain. I have been mourning the 'good byes' to what has been a known and not embracing what is to come. My logic reminded me that I really do like change. My logic told me I was not to worry, God has been more than faithful to me (us). My logic told me that worry robbed me of the joys of the day or moment. My emotions seemed to override the 'logic' for too long. Where was my faith in God?
In the past month God has begun to answer my longings and prayers. I love a term I have coined 'connecting the God dots' when I reflect on my life. Today, the dots keep popping up and God is showing me He has heard my pleas and knows my fears. I have yet to see how the dots will connect to create the bigger picture but I know there is movement and He has me covered.
I will connect some of the dots in the days to come. They are exciting! I doubt that this side of eternity I will ever see the completed picture but I love that some of the dots seem to be making sense. They truly are God's plans for they are impossible apart from Him.
Oh Lord, You are shield for me,
my glory and the lifter of my head!
Psalm 3:3
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